end of first 24 hours is approaching,

and surprisingly, i'm not hungry at all. i'm really hoping to be down a few lbs in the morning. hopefully that 'easy first five' will come off pretty quickly.

tomorrow will be a challenge. i'm going to spend lunch in the library, with 'sick puppy' by carl haissen and my bottle of diet green tea. after school, boyfriend is coming over which could mean trouble. i am probably going to fake going to subway just so i can skip out of dinner by saying i'm still full from earlier in the afternoon. if all else fails and i am forced to eat, the 100 calorie soup at hand in my cabinet will do nicely.

it's not easy to give into ana after recovery. once you lose that hungry feeling, having it back is something hard to overcome. i struggle every day to get back to my old daily routine. hopefully, i'll be at my first goal weight by nov 1st.